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more phoenix wright situations
#ace attorney tag#maybe i should tag this narumitsu or something. but i dont really care.#gearing up to rereading/illustrating bits of my fic i suppose...i think nick really is too dense to realise he's in love with edgeworth#without some scheming fop trying to intrude. i love villains like kristoph..villains can be fun..witnessing their pathetic folly..#or more like edgeworth would never have mentioned his feelings ever in his life if he wasn't sure phoenix reciprocates.#i want to see it this way because Falling in love during childhood with the person you're going to end up with. is not relatable#there have to be Situations that make you Realise.#as with orufrey i adore the idea of people not working out their romance with that person until their 30s+#but... i mean. even with orufrey i often think how alaira could be qifrey's ex. and oru having been pursued by noble fops through his work#there is that delicate sliver of time before orufrey start living together that such believable situations could have happened.#Then the relief of politely and amicably extricating themselves from those untenable situations#the idea of falling in love age 7 and saving your first kiss for age 35 or something is all very well but more relatable is#people realising how they really feel whilst trying something that ends up feeling wrong.#The comfort and joy of living with your dearest one as if it's platonic - much preferable to trying anything more with anyone else.#But i doubt i will ever portray that or mention it further. it is indeed very delicate to me.#and i really am an OTP FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of person who can barely bear to consider this anyway...NOT a polyshipper i'm afraid !#so i wouldn't mind either if they do have their first kiss in their lives age 35 with each other either. I would not mind that at all.#i love bi/gay couples apparently... bi father figures & their grumpy gay men waiting for them to work it all out...#not used to using colour in comic-style drawings..or at all..so this is messy and awkward looking..but colour is refreshing#i imagine i will go back to witch hat art soon btw. my destiny in life.#i still remember writing my nrmt fic expecting to write their first kiss & then partway through twas like Umm No. They have kissed prior.#does that really line up with this comic though... i think i had their early dinner dates/first kiss BEFORE disbarment.#so i guess this comic doesn't line up with my ficverse.... No..... U___U Oh well. sorry kris! <3
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ancient josuyasu doodle (circa 536 a.d)
#im just gonna start posting old unpublished shit cause i think i used to draw pretty decently#now... thats the thing *now* im not so sure#but maybe this will stir something within me#maybe it'll inspire me#maybe it'll help me blow off some steam#i wanna ink this... if i ever find the original again... else im just gonna do the lineart digitally#i dont mean to sound... idk... but fr seeing the state of the world#seeing how an entire population can be massacred without the international~community~ batting an eye... it put many things into perspective#one thing is how *banal* my whole art felt#i wish i could do more political stuff... thats what im aiming for if i can#but now... after a year i think differently. I still think my whole portfolio is a bit dumb#but it is in not *banal*#it's not entirely *banal* i have tried and made sure it was never *just* some anime guys and nothing behind#if anyone... just one person ever catched that... then im happy. And i know for sure many did#so thank you#idk exactly what this rant is#but thank you for linking what i do#and ill keep trying despite everything and ill keep on trying harder and trying to make more and better art#even if its banal even if its political even if only i see through it#now the actual tags so this has any visibility at all#josuyasu#jojo#jojo's bizarre adventure#nijimura okuyasu#okuyasu nijimura#josuke higashikata#higashikata josuke
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honestly i dont really talk about caine all too much, i talk about pomni a lot and then ill talk abt ragatha a lot and then i also talk about gangle and kinger and it generally cycles between them (i draw jax a lot but it has to do w him just being fun to draw- i need to talk about zooble MORE bc they were one of the first parts of the show that got me invested)- i love the entire main cast but some of them i talk abt more and i feel like caine is not a common one i discuss. but i really really like his character even if i dont talk about him so much
#i think the complicated thing is that what i find appealing abt his character isnt always aligned w how he gets depicted#no shame to anyone else i like ppl having fun! i just like him in a specific way myself#i like when nonhuman characters are so very nonhuman its really cool to me#theres a tragedy to him that i also like but i like the idea that that tragedy is also like#what makes him Really Bad News for the cast members. i like him being scary in an oblivious nd jovial way its intriguing to me#.tbqh i dont see the show ending well for him#w the trajectory his character is going i think hes going to do worse and worse things#i dont think itll get rid of his tragedy and i do think the show will address some things theyve implied abt him more explicitly later#but. i dont think its ending well for him. i dont think hes gonna be making any friends. i think he is going to crash and burn#which. is sadder for him and worse news for the rest of the cast in a very compelling way to me#i mean smth good COULD happen for him but the way hes been presented so far doesnt make me hopeful for his future#i dont think hell ever be evil. and i think its more meaningful that way#smth smth he and jax are smth akin to foils and i think where jax' character has a good chance of having SOME inkling of improvement#by the end#but caine is less likely to have this. i think hes more likely to go the other direction#funny considering that caine is more jovial and friendly in comparison#but. yeah. i really like him theres a fun-ness to him thats really entertaining he makes me laugh#but theres also a deep horror to him that i loooove writing wise#add in the implied tragedy hes very interesting#theres a reason i still have that animatic in the works of him#i love the other characters a little more personally than caine#but the story being built up for caine and the circus as a setting is a majorly fascinating aspect of the whole show#im excited to see where it goes and i wanna be able to convey my thoughts on him#...tho i tend to get distracted by the women in the show more frequently HAHA#circus discussion
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also uhhh i wanna b clear abt 1 itty bitty lil thing
when i say this blog is minor-safe, i mean like. the content i put out is safe for all ages to consume and rb and i'm comfortable with that. i mean this blog is one where underage community members can gush in the askbox about fictional characters and whatnot.
this is my library and i am the sole custodian. y'all can come to me to talk about the whack ass books or to tell me some creepy nerd is hanging around so i can beat em up with a broom. it starts and ends there
#jibber jabber#not tickles#i always stress that ppl will get the wrong idea#genuinely my purpose in having this be an all ages fandom blog is just so like...#younger community members dont go through the same uncomfortable / traumatic experiences myself and friends of mine have#the dark underbellies we used to trawl through & were groomed into thinking was safe for years#i rlly and truly dont want that for anyone else#it sucked lmao#also worth noting the keyword fictional#i neeeeeever ever ever ever invite or want irl people involved with this blog#re those gifs you find on Specific blogs & content abt youtubers streamers etc#idk fiction abt real people has always crossed a line for me#have your crushes and fantasies but dont... dont publicize it if that real person could see it with their own eyes yk
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crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It
#my version of them is centered around their blog version with the ‘personality’ of their steam review and like a bunch of HC#i developed them with the implication that they’re Real but i’m a bit iffy on it#because all my friends have theories about how they’re from the narrator’s consciousness which is sick as hell#and i’m unsure how to actually structure everything or if i should go the same route so i can get approval from them </3#my friends r the real reviewer fans even though they dont plague themselves over them every day and im so sad that i don’t know anythinggg#gggggggggggg#like im p sure they genuinely hate the stuff i make about cookie9 and im just. scrumbles myself. sorry im Trying :( i’m not smart#or good at writing or even media literate#whatever that term means#all i have is love in my heart for them i don’t know anything at all#ouhghghhg they hate It so much but i cant do anything else and it’s all i have#like all my cookie9 stuff works on the ‘what if their blog self Was Real’ but i’m not actually sure how to fit it all into my actual parabl#stuff because i still havent worked out how my parable itself works#and people probably don’t think i know enough and i don’t think they’ll approve if i try. so i Don’t#tempted to blame this on my like. general crushing lack of intelligence caused by both physical and mental reasons#but i want to believe i could do better if i try? but that’s incredibly hopeful#i’ll be stuck here forever i think#<-guy who. whenever Anything wrong happens ever. just goes back to ‘oh yeah its because im dumb as fuckign rocks. due to the Incidents’#i am very scared of the possibility that it is possible for me to be anything more because that implies that i’m stupid because i didnt try#even though i’m trying very very fucking hard and every time i get something wrong way more than anyone else i’ve ever known#and they hate me for it . MAN!!!!!!!!!#<-brain is lying 2 me i think nobody hates me or . whatever. it still feels like it though im just saying this because i dont want anyone t#think people genuinely hate me for being stupid. i mean. people DO. but not my friends ☝️#man i can’t even get into the buglivia crap either because she is so abstracted from her actual review#girl w identity issues and also the general normal Changing A Lot Through Time. i scrumble her. around#her Self during 2018 would in fact be in character for the review.i want to draw her during that time. she took everything so seriously </3#tbh my version of her does react well to TSP humor but at the time she felt like she wasn’t allowed 2 Do Her Thing and tried to seem#more professional and Normal and it seeped into EVERYTHING for a bit#cookie9 though just genuinely found the narrator annoying and patronizing. its just not his thing and thats fine#<-random nonsensechemical reviewer bits hidden inside the vents. SEND POST.
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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
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Thinking about one of the loser men I dated directly post-college who, after I showed them Dirty Computer [the emotion picture] by Janelle Monae, said they "prefer rap that has something to say"
#this person identified as a man but used they/them pronouns just in case that was confusing#but yeah like. what does that mean. did you watch the video#also one time said colorado edibles were 'too strong' and therefore 'dangerous'#they said that COLORADO should have more 'regulations' imposed on weed products lmfao#also when i was watching mad men and expressed that i liked it#they were like 'i dont see the appeal bc the commentary feels obvious to anyone whos lived on the east coast' skskdkdkelsdnakas#they had the WEIRDEST complex about being from the east coast. like. most tightly wound person ive ever met in my life#who was constantly insisting they were sooo type b and so chill and go-with-the-flow#and like yeah im aware im from one of the most laid back slacker states#but this person was one of the most uptight people ive ever met let alone dated#and just had like 0 self awareness about it#like they would exclusively wear button downs sweater vests and cardigans. wouldnt be caught dead in a hoodie unless it was northface#would only drink coffee if it was made from a french press#also see above story about edibles (which was the biggest 'fight' we ever got in bc i was like what the fuck r u talking about)#like. the label says clearly how much thc cbd etc is in each edible and how many doses there are per container#what else could you want#if you dont know how itll affect you just take half or even a quarter of one first???#this still gets me heated to think about#but yeah like what kind of person sees DIRTY COMPUTER and is like 'hmm not political enough' lmfao#OH ALSO guess why we broke up#the blm protests happened and they said they were just 'too affected by police violence to be dating right now'#(they were very much white. blonde white)#and then i found out 11 months after we broke up that they had started dating a poc a month before we broke up#because i saw an anniversary post they did and i was like '...wait a minute'#and a friend of mine used to work with them after we broke up and according to him this person would constantly bring up what a great 'ally'#they were for dating a poc#fucking. wild
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#big gender rant ahead i just need to write down my thoughts#personal#so i think im a he/him trans lesbian??#i think ive been denying my feminine side for a long time now but middle school me was right. well. half right#idk why id built up some weird barrier in my mind about being trans and being a lesbian#but now im like more sure than ever#i still dont know if i could call myself a woman. and i thought i was so adamant about not using she/her again but it honestly?#doesn't bother me that much anymore. its not my preference but its not as soul crushing as it used to be#i have these weird subliminal gender rules for myself that ive been beating myself down with even though i#understand that theyre fake and dont hold anyone else to them. so why have a double standard? cant i have a fun gender?#ever since high school its been an uphill battle just letting myself live freely and having self confidence#i just turned 24. i dont have to be beholden to stupid hormonal teenage self loathing anymore#the world is a beautiful place and gender is just made up anyway. so why cant i be trans and butch? who cares??#i think i worded it well in my last personal post. ive been living a gender of convenience#but fuck that! i want the gender that makes sense to me! that makes me happy! its my life and i should live it how i want to!#...i still have some regrets about my top surgery. i wish i wasnt so weirdly flat chested now.#but hopefully the fat will redistribute eventually and itll look more natural as the years go on..#but i definitely dont regret going on T. i love my deep voice and my body hair#anyway if you've read this far thanks for listening to my mad ramblings#and dont forget you can have a fun gender too!
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As one of the droolish fighters, you have to admit it's very funny that Wilbur lost to the dude who only saw Dream once and yet may have understood post-prison Dream far better than anyone else save Punz.
Nah, more than c!Punz. c!Punz was the Plan which didn't reeeeally demand understanding c!Dream, just well. Working with him. c!Punz and c!Dream and the gulf between them in terms of actual understanding is what really defines how they're portrayed in the finale. on the other hand c!Wilbur's whole thing with c!Dream in inconsolable differences ... kind of speaks for itself.
#my asks !!#personally i think c!wilbur should've met c!sam. maybe c!dream can be there. As A Treat.#like listen ill be the first to say that c!dreambur confuses the fuck out of me i wish i could definitively say i knew what was going on#there but i definitely dont#all that being said tho like c!wilbur's ability to read people should not be underestimated#and he's never once struggled to get c!dream to work with him on his terms#from the revolution to when he leaves the damn server#so yeah. uh. c!wilbur gets how he ticks#does anyone else ever think abt how wilbur found out abt the torture before punz#does anyone else ever think abt how wilbur kinda like knew exactly what q was quoting with that torture maim mutilate thing#because he directly references it when he receives q's book#and he had reasonable reason to believe that q was torturing dream#like before tommy outright confirms it to him#does anyone else ever think abt how dream trusted wilbur to break him out of that prison. ANYWAY.#im so not normal abt them sorry
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wild how the more i'm working on recovery. the more i realize how fucking bad i miss her.
#which still feels kind of insane and embarrassing since i didn't technically know her myself#(my alter did. i however barely interacted with her.)#but she knew me. she fucking knew me and saw me. i've talked about this in earlier posts but that's still the main thing that hits me.#i feel like nobody else has ever ever known me like she has. i've never felt that seen. and she loved me. she cared about me. she knew what#was underlying my outwards appearance and behaviors. she saw it and loved and cared for it. and because she knew it so well she didn't take#anything personally. (again. not douchey behaviors. just like... bragging for example. or being guarded. idk)#also there's so many things we relate on? felt like i could connect with her better. i think she and i would have been friends.#i dont know it's just#with everyone else it feels like a fucking obligatory social game i need to navigate#say the right things. act in the right ways. present yourself in ways they'll understand and interpret well. blah blah#i'm not even going anywhere with this i just miss her so bad and i'm fucking lonely and want to be seen like that again but i don't think#it can ever happen. because i got to be 100% myself but it was in a safe way and that's how she grew to know and love me#but it wasn't ME who made that decision to be vulnerable. and it was through a specific way that can't be done again because i'm here now a#an alter so it's guarded. and i can't be selfish and demanding and fully myself here because system morals are too strong for that.#even if the aforementioned thing COULD happen again. i haven't seen anyone who cares and understands and sees so deeply like she does.#it's just#i don't know#i just want to be myself and loved and seen for who i am.#but instead it always just feels like i'm having to navigate and manage social expectations and That's It.#maybe i just need to be friends with another narcissist. so i dont have to fucking mask anymore. only concern is if i'm actually being#myself - i have a high pitched voice and talk fast and talk a lot and am kinda obnoxious and high energy and#attention-seeking and dislike being alone and. yeah. that's annoying to the majority of people. which is why i am Not myself around anyone
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I get so fucking depressed over not being allowed to have ANY ODOUR like what the fuck. Got complaints at my job because apparently people have thought I smell bad. And this isn't something new for me either. All my life I've heard I smell bad, that my sweat smells "weird". People have told me I smell like a foreigner, like I'm not Swedish, like I don't care for my hygiene. Sometimes I'll shower and before I've even had the time to dry myself off I've started sweating a little and allready have my "smell" on me again.
And I know dear reader you're probably scoffing at me rn going "pfft lol why not use perfume or deoderant, I bet you don't actually wash yourself" and I just have to say please fucking hit yourself in the head 10 times. I'm allergic to 99% of deodorant (metal allergy and sensitive to drying from alcohol) and even the ones I haven't had reactions to haven't fucking done anything.
We need to destigmatize smell honestly. In our modern society everyone is expected to smell like fucking roses and green apples and fresh cotton and if you visibly sweat or smell even a little funky you get ostracized. I shouldn't have to feel ashamed because you can't tolerate some natural body smells. I'm not sayinh anyone has to huff my pits or anything just don't frown at me don't force me to use antiperspirant because it FUCKS my body UP. When did we accept antiperspirant as the norm in society
#i lost my steam while writing this because it genuinely makes me so upset#i dont wanna hear another Swedish person ever talk about what I smell like unprompted again#i might write more about this after I cool down and get to think a bit#rn I gotta go out and make a new try at finding a deodorant that could work for me :))) or else ill get into trouble at work#doesnt help that I have the sweatiest warmest most humid spot in the fucking kitchen ofc im gonna sweat you dunce#anyone is free to reblog btw just dont clown on this post please
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dude it’s fine if you don’t like it, you just can’t take a moral high ground because of that. They aren’t real, and you’re not morally superior for not liking beast x ancient. You’re the same.
does asking to be blocked count as moral high ground???? 😭 because that what i did!
i said if you ship them, block me. i said i dont care what reason you have for shipping them, just block me.
because i dont know if youve noticed, Anon. but it takes a lot less time to just block a bitch than it does to tell them theyre not "morally superior"
if anything im just save everyone some time, beast x ancient shippers can block me and beast x ancients haters can be like "yay new person to follow"
im sorry you felt the need to take the time out of your day to try and knock me down a peg i dont fucking have. and im sorry you think that i think im some kind of end all be all on how a fandom should be.
heads up, probably wont be responding to you again because honestly i just have nothing else to say on this 🤷🏾♀️ like genuinely i dont think theres anything else i could say really so,,,,,,yeah
#the pony!! she speaks!!#cookie run#as i say#i only ever speak for myself#if others share my opinion thats fine#but i only speak for me#i dont hold my opinions above anyone else#at least i try not to im only human#everyone always think that theyre in right from their personal point of view#could you imagine if i had that ego tho?#i would be fucking insufferable#not just annoying like i am now#but Fucking. Insufferable.#please take me out if i do ajdj
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today i cant stop thinking about cutting my father out of my life & inadvertently severing any connection i'd have to my youngest sister & how she will grow up with my father telling her his version of the truth that always paints me as the bad guy
#if he speaks of me at all that is#dont have to explain an absence if its never felt ig#this is so dabi core#anyone elses fathers love them until they stopped being a perfect extension of himself so then you became rotten and evil#for the crime of Being Your Own Person?#4th house being taurus w/saturn oh im fuckeddddd#funny how my libra is in shn & i can recognize now that i always viewed my father with FAR TOO MUCHC GRACE & nuance bc i wished he'd do#the same for me#oh i said is in sun ... i meant sun is in libra what freaking ever#i think my chart is very funny bc the more i get into astrology im like. oh i never relax .. like im never comfortable or anything thats soo#epic !#i think i got the better deal#i think i'd be worse off having him in my life like she will (maybe)#he doesnt have a good track record of staying in one place#god i wish i could loook at his chart
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i honestly deserved none of the shit ppl did to me that lead me to this point
#yall made a victim bitter and hate everyone. congratz ig. keep convincing yourself its somehow activism.#me saying a slur i shouldnt have in 2013/14 bc the ppl around me irl normalized it to me and that repelling people online from me?#understandable. everything else? yeah you can all fuck yourselves with a rake.#plus- that was literally 11/10 years the fuck ago. do you really genuinely believe in all of that time that im still fucking saying it#the only way you could believe that is if you thought I was some sort of secret strategic right winger whos planning ???? something#god the fuck knows what it would even be#if you think im somehow tainted bc of that past I think you might be a lil controlling of a person#im sorry no one is a pure person who never does wrong. get over yourself bc you sure as fuck arent perfect my good bitch#it was 11/10 years ago AND i was a fucking kid. yeah. i think im bound to make mistakes bc of the inherent ignorance of being a child.#i dont think that deserves to be held against me my entire life especially since I now heavily disagree with the reasoning for why#i thought it was ok to say in the fucking first place#yall just want an eternal punching bag and thats really it.#i could become a fucking saint and it wouldnt matter bc dur he said bad word 11 years ago worst thing anyone could do ever fer sure#yall are impossible to please and its why no one but the people you've guilted and manipulated gives a fuck about trying.#and even they eventually see it for the bullshit it is.#yall want someone to control and do everything you say. not for people to become better to others. you dont give a fuck#you auth piece of shit.#thats why i had to learn that slur was still bad to say offline. bc all the people online wanted to do was control my actions#tell ME what to do. tell ME what to draw. when they have no fucking right to TELL ME what to do. you can ask- im more receptive to being#asked to not do something. but any type of behavior control? good fucking luck. you think I failed highschool just bc of the bullying#n shit? nah its bc I dont like being ORDERED to do shit. and I never fucking will! and theres nothing anyone can fucking do to#make me do shit and if they try to force me to do shit they're controlling as fuck and authoritarian.#i have learned SO MUCH more on my own volition and desire to learn vs when I was TOLD that I HAD to.#all my life ive rebelled against this shit. you bet your ass im not about to stop with yall. ask me like im a fucking person#not TELL me to do something like im a fucking slave to your whims.#fuck you
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Another night to feel lonely
#i think everything has been so fucked lately that ive just been dying#and honestly i miss pomu#and shes still around cuz i follow her alt twitter but like#i miss pomu as like the streamer and concept#dont get me wrong i dont want the person behind pomu to go back to being pomu or get back into content creation if they dont want to#but i still just miss the livestreams and getting to just get my mind off things with a goofy streamer#and honestly i dont think ill ever find anyone that can come close to how i elt abt pomu so#and then to top it off the company is in flames rn with the whole selen thing#so everything is just kinda shit#idk where anyone goes from here we'll see what doki says tomorrow#otherwise i guess i just wait for elira to actually stream again maybe?#who cares at this point nothing matters#anyway sorry its just vtuber drama rambles#i just miss my oshi and wish i could take comfort in something else#but im just kinda dead inside lmao#and i was doing kinda okay for like a month there my life finally pulled up from the very depths of hell#but i guess we're back baby the devil must've missed me to bring me back like this
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#heres me complaining about the holidays like everyone else sorry#anyway why is it that i feel like im the only person in the world capable of comprehending what someone else is feeling??#why in the shit am i the one who ever seems to think about what anyone else is thinking#and i sit here and wonder why im i obsessed with what everyone is thinking all the time#to the point that im pretty sure im teetering on the edge of full blown agoraphobia#gosh i dont fucking know#maybe its because no one in my god damn family knows how to talk to one another#and ive spent my entire life being the only one capable of restoring any semblance of peace to my house#because i was the only one who was capable of making the logical conclusion that you two are arguing fucking two different points#and getting angry that the other person isnt making sense#no one ever fucking listens to each other#why why why am i the only one who can understand these things??#do you understand why i spent so long believing there was no possible way i could be autistic#because i was so good at being able to understand people#ya cause i had to otherwise my parents mightve fucking killed my brother#sorry whoops that was a trauma dump that i didnt mean to do that#hope ur having a good holiday and/or regular day if u read this my bad ✌️
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